I know you are really loving my holiday theme that's still here-- I kind of feel like I've still got my tree up in the living room--decorations and all. But I'd rather post than spend my time changing my header and background. Maybe tomorrow, right?
But if I did it tomorrow, I'd have to do it after nursing before dawn, working out, showering, feeding my older three, drying my hair, putting on my face, winterizing my children, loading them into car seats, dropping two off at school, taking the younger two to two different play dates, picking older two up from school, making lunch, feeding baby, nursing baby, reading stories, putting them down for naps, cleaning up lunch, mopping my floors, folding laundry, vacuuming, checking in with my class online (and crossing my fingers I won't have much to do), fixing the kids a snack, starting dinner, nursing baby, filling plates, eating dinner, having a dance party, lifting at the gym, pj-ing my girls (hubby does their teeth brushing), reading another story, kissing and hugging and cuddling, turning out the lights and heading downstairs to check in with my class again. But by now it's probably 8:30 or 9:30 and I'll just want to relax for a minute--who knows.
Our schedule was rather similar today to what is listed above, and I'm finding time to post--so I'm hopeful!!! Hopeful. Hopeful. Hopeful.
For those of you with older children--I know you like to tell me that it doesn't get any easier. But can you just lie to me if you decide to comment? Please? Just tell me that when they grow a little and can bathe themselves, or tie their own shoes, or fix their own sandwich, or go potty independently, that it really doesn't get tougher. Tell me it's easier! And also, can you leave out the part where you say you miss assisting with bum-wiping, or shoe tying, or not getting sleep? I mean come on, do you really miss NOT GETTING SLEEP?
All kidding aside, I know I'll miss all the little assisting/mommy jobs I do day in and day out. I know I'll miss the cries for Mommy in the night. I know I'll kick myself every time I'm worried and not sleeping while waiting for them to come home from a game or a date and think, why did I ever cry about losing sleep from simply nursing my baby. I'll yearn for those easy days when I had little kids with little problems. I know I'll want to trade in their teenage attitude for their boundary-testing toddler days. I do know that it all passes too fast.
So for me, the choice has to be to realize what season of life I'm in, own it, and love it.
Love the fact that my children still actively seek my approval and love. Love the nights when I pull out towel after towel from the closet for my vomiting baby. Love the days when I want to pull out my hair and run for the hills screaming somebody take me away!!!! Love the moments when my little girl wraps her tiny arms around my legs, looks up at me with her big brown (or blue in M&M's case) eyes and says, "I love you Mama"!
Not only shall this,too, pass, but it will do it as fast as a rug being pulled out from under me. And I don't want to wake up on the floor someday, realize that rug is gone, and have regrets about not enjoying this time in my life.
And despite how desperate I appear in longing for a day at the sap--in all honesty, I'd be bored out of my mind. The energy that surrounds my family is crazy, but it's also filled with love. When I'm not with these precious girls, I honestly miss them to my core. Yes, I enjoy a couple hours away once in a while (and I covet my gym-time) with my husband, friends, mom, or even by myself--but it doesn't take long for me to find something in my environment that reminds me of how much I love my children. And it's that love that propels this tired, overworked, but NOT underpaid mom.
May my children reap the benefits of what I sow.
***Thanks, mom, for taking a few moments to snap these photos. I really don't have many of me with my babes and it means a lot to me that I got these!***
2 comments:
In many ways it does get easier. Since my are now 7 and 9 I can say delicious things such as, "Can you please go get ready for bed?" and in 10 minutes they have their pjs on and have brushed their teeth! And they can make their own pbj's if it's a really horrible dinner night. So yes, there will be positive changes. I don't miss bum-wiping or potty training, but cuddling never grows old and I'm so happy that both my girls still tolerate it!
love the pictures of you!! i don't think it gets easier or harder...it all just changes. there will always be things. and we'll still be their mommy. ((at least i better be!!))
enjoying this season with you. :0)
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