Happ, Happ, Happy Birthday

My dear Kaelyn Annie Bananie-
Today marks the one year anniversary of your journey to the outside world. The world that causes hurt and joy in the same instance. The world where two people will nurture you everyday of your young life, and then cry the day you leave for college. The world where you'll get to meet friends, try your hand at riding a bike with no training wheels, kiss me goodbye as I watch you leave for your first day of school, and come home to a family who cherishes you. This is the day you joined the human race in the life-long journey of discovering... well, life.

And my sweet curly top, I am honored and blessed to share in this journey together with you.

And just as I look to our future together, I also look to the past with the fondest of memories.

When I look at you, I remember the way you loved to snuggle in the first months of your life with your head against mine and your nose against mine, curled into my body. I loved being in this spot with you, even though it was usually about 3 o'clock in the morning. I didn't care though-- because I could smell your head, feel your breath and snuggle in your warmth. I will cherish this time forever.



You grew into a funny little girl. I don't know if I've ever seen a smile light up a room the way yours does. I cry just thinking about how happy you are and how happy you make all those around you. And just as you are a bright smiling light, you are also a little clown. Since you understood laughter, you have done everything to get people's attention just so you can make them laugh. Oh, and you're successful.
I'm also amazed about how well you understand fairness. I guess this comes with third-child territory, but you always seem to know if you aren't being treated the same way as your sisters. You scream and wave your arms about to express your concern. Especially when someone comes over and you've decided that they are there just to see you--- or at least you are the most important reason they came to our house. I'll apologize now for any further feelings of not being treated fairly as I'm sure you will have those.

One of my favorite things that you are doing now is your boot scootin'. "She may never crawl the traditional way, but that's okay. She gets to where she wants to be."~Dr. Harris. Oh that's for sure-- she does get where she needs to be. I've actually tried scooting like you do everyday, and let me tell ya, it's a workout. My little princess is going to have abs and thighs of steel.

You are standing, but not walking. That's okay. You are Kaelyn, you'll do things on your own time and that's just fine! I will be your mother and wait to relish in your achievements with you. I will be there when you soar, but I promise to be there when you are falling.

Thank you for being my light. My curly top. My warmth. My snuggle. My heart. My smiles. My crazy-panting flapper. My boot scooter. My daughter. My life.

May God bless you the way HE has blessed me. Happy Birthday, baby.

Love, Mama

My Little Smartie

My baby got glasses. She was border line on needing them, but we decided to try them on the off chance they'd help correct her vision. Not to mention she can actually see better now.

And though she looks freakin' cute and super intelligent, she's not such a big fan.

See, we have to hold her hand down so she doesn't rip them off her head. We only get one completely free replacement in the next 18 months. Needless to say I don't want to waste that in the first week.

Yes, sweet girl-they feel weird, but they'll only help you.

Pumpkin Patch Fun

We ventured out to our favorite pumpkin patch this weekend. We spent a glorious two hours with our sweet girls playing in the hay, eating hot dogs, sitting on pumpkins and sliding down a BIG slide.
Kenli is cheesy by the beautiful mums(?) -no green thumb

And my sweet little poser by the pretty fall colors.

The two scarecrows.

All three on the $30 pumpkins at once!

We had my niece Zada with us too. Four girls = four times the fun!
Nope, she still doesn't walk. But she enjoyed her nice wagon ride around the ground.


Going up, up, up...And coming down. This took a lot of courage at first, but once she went a few times, we couldn't get her off the slide.

She thought if she closed her eyes, it wouldn't be as scary. This was her first teeter-toter experience!

The crazy part of this whole story--one year ago this past weekend we went to this pumpkin patch as a family of four. It was the day before I went into the hospital to be induced with Kaelyn. Here we are one year ago-

One-year old Keira and her mama.

Daddy and his girls-but you can't see Keira's face.

And here is the one picture of Kaelyn-- she's underneath that Kansas sweatshirt.

Please look at her site

http://audreycaroline.blogspot.com/

I have spent the last two hours reading the story of Audrey Caroline and her family. It is a sad and beautiful story- but that doesn't even begin to scratch the surface. This woman has suffered the greatest loss a parent can face, yet she has a faith in God that is bringing her through the storm. Her writing is simple and beautiful. I've cried and prayed while I read her story and I hope that you will do the same.
*Make sure to look on the left sidebar where you can click to see the story from the beginning. And make sure you have a few hours to devote to this because you will not want to stop reading. God Bless!

More Than One?

"Well, you feel further along than 9 weeks. Did you say you have a sonogram scheduled right after your appointment with me?"

"Yes."

"Good, because I would order one anyway."



My mind is racing. No, my three-year old couldn't be right- she can't have ESP. There are not twins growing in my belly right now. There can't be. Why would God give us twins this late in the game? Why not with the first pregnancy, or even the second? Well, twins would be neat. Maybe it'd be a boy and a girl- one of each would be great. Oh no, what if there's some kind of growth in there that's not human- or worse, what if it's not benign.



These ideas went through my head faster than it took you to read them. Needless to say, my thoughts were getting the better of me- and I think my husband too. We joked out loud, "Ha, what if Kenli was right? Wouldn't that be funny to have twins as our FOURTH pregnancy?"



Everything else was good with the doctor, so we made our way down the hall to the sonogram room. I laid down on the table expecting to see two heartbeats or some weird growth. Both would be completely life changing. One in a good but scary way- the other in a bad and scary way.



Once my belly was jellied and cold, the tech put the magic wand against my skin to reveal the surprise. One little baby with a beating heart. She continued to scan since she knew she was looking for something along the lines of buy one get one free, but nothing popped up.



Happy, but nonetheless perplexed, my little family of five made our way out of the sonogram room. I looked to the doctor for an explanation of why I was measuring 13 weeks- she could only surmise that it is because I'm carrying number four. I'll take that answer- it makes much more sense than twins or fibroids!

Here is peanut number four. Send a comment with name suggestions and I'll add a poll. Send both boy and girl names- no one knows for sure this is another girl.

Two Wonderful Years

Two years ago today I was exactly 40 weeks pregnant, and my little family of three saw its last day- we were about to welcome Keira Grace into the world.

As the sun was rising the next morning, we dropped Kenli off at Gram and Papa's and said our goodbyes. We were very excited to be on our way to the hospital where we would soon meet our new daughter.

We arrived at the hospital at 7:30 in the morning- awaiting the lovely pitocin. After much delay, the fun finally started around 10:00 am. Of all my labors, Keira's was by far the easiest. The six hours I labored without the epidural were not terribly awful- my sister and I played hangman in between contractions. After the epidural, I had about four more hours of labor and with three pushes, my little Gracie Pants came out pink and screaming. She was placed in my arms, and I was in awe. The love was instant. And just like her older sister, Keira immediately pooped on me, but again I didn't care.

I remember the doctor's and nurses' reactions upon seeing her- "Oh, my she's big."

"Really," I said. And they all assured me that she was big. But she looked so small compared to my 13 month old at home. All 8 pounds 15 ounces of her was perfect as can be.

I cherished our time together in the hospital. We cuddled, slept, and became familiar with one another. I couldn't wait to show her off- not only because she was mine and beautiful, but also because she looked very similar to me. I was so proud that I carried around a little photo of me as a newborn to show everybody how much we looked alike.

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Keira, God put you in our family as a middle child and I'm beginning to see that HE was right in doing so. You aren't the first-born, nor the last- your in the middle- the person who gets to be a little sister and a big sister. You do an amazing job playing both of those roles and your sisters cherish and adore you just because you're you. You follow Kenli around the house copying her every move while also instigating a few spats- a little sister to the 'T.' You also bring toys to Kaelyn and help her scoot across the floor- a perfect big sister. They love you and know you like no on else ever will.

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My sweet little brownie- you have grown so fast the past two years. I can't believe I've only known you for such a short amount of time when it feels like I've known you my whole life. I can't imagine life without your sweet smile, your spunky demeanor or big brown eyes.

I love the way you hold my hand as we walk down stairs after naps.

I love that you insist on me scratching your back at sleepy times.

I love that you must "read" in bed.

I find your stubbornness enduring. One of the hardest things I've had to do is be more stubborn than you when all I wanted to do was give in.

I adore your Scottish accent.

Oh, your pouty lips-- melt my heart.

You make my days sweeter just by being yourself. Your beauty on the outside is matched only by the beauty I see inside. You will go far in this life because you are one determined little girl who doesn't give in easily (or at all). You know what you want, and you go after it with such great tenacity.

Thank you for being you and letting me be your mommy. My love for you is unconditional and ever-lasting. Happy birthday Keira "Gracie Pants" "Brownie" " Brown-Brown" "Frog." I look forward to our next year together!

Love, Mama